Blessed. If I had to describe the last year in 1 word, it would be Blessed. I literally have never been more happy with my life, in my life. I don’t want to go as far as to say it’s perfect, everyone has their problems, but it’s so damn close, it scares me sometimes. I don’t know what I’ve done to deserve so many blessings, but I am beyond thankful for each and every one of them.
This past year, I started my job at Care.com. I so love being a work at home Mom!! It is truly amazing. I love that I am able to be home with the kids AND bring home a paycheck. It also helps keep me connected with the world outside of my home, even though I am still in my home, and lets me have adult conversations throughout the day
And we of course welcomed our little buddy into the world this year!! Justin is a blessing on so many levels. Most, if not all, of the things I’m about to list as being blessed for are directly associated with him and his arrival. He has completed our family. Every day with Lauren and Justin is a little slice of Heaven. I am so head over heels in love with both of them. Sometimes I don’t know how my heart beats because there is so much love for these 2 little cherubs. They are both such characters and I just love them to pieces! It is at times crazy and busy and stressful, not to mention the lack of overnight sleep we are getting, but I would not change a thing. I am enjoying every second of every day, even the bad moments. I want to look back 20 years from now and know we did all we could to provide a happy home for our children. I think we’re doing pretty well so far.
I’ve also been getting into shape. When I got pregnant with Justin, I was 10 pounds heavier than I was when I got pregnant with Lauren. My goal was to get down to my first pre-pregnancy weight. I am more than happy to say, that with eating less and more healthy, and the occasional week or so of exercise, I am currently 5 pounds less than my goal!! I have never, in my entire life, felt better about myself. Not only because of my weight, but I just feel…like myself. I’m not even sure how to explain it. Like, take my hair. I always used to have to straighten it to leave the house, or put it in a perfect ponytail with hairspray and hopes that no one would touch it to make it go out of place. Now, I just blow dry for a few minutes, and I’m good. And it’s not that I’m lazy or don’t have the time, it’s that I’m okay with my hair (and myself), how it is naturally. This is how I was made and I am more than ok with that. Yes, I have stretch marks, I have a lot of extra skin and fat in my belly, my hair is a little frizzy…but I feel relaxed and strong in my own skin. Something I don’t think I have ever been. Ever. I wouldn’t say that I’m confident, I never have been and I don’t think I ever will be, but I am comfortable with myself. And that is seriously a blessing. I feel that somehow, becoming a Mom for the second time, did this to me. So…thank you Justin!
And to top it all off, I have never been more in love with my husband. He is truly my everything. I knew from the very first time that I saw him, that he was the one. I’ll never forget the story a friend of his told me after we got engaged. Way, way back, when Victor and I were only 19 years old and were “dating”, years before our official relationship even started, I drove through the McDonald’s parking lot (real romantic, huh), past Victor and a couple of his friends sitting in his car. After I drove by, Victor said to his friends, “I’m going to marry that girl.” Every time I think of that story, I smile. We’ve definitely had our ups and downs and everywhere in between, but God blessed the broken road, that’s for sure. He’s been my best friend for the past 7 years but we have never been closer since Justin was born. Our love is stronger than ever. Forever and always.
So my life, and this past year, is blessed. Everything feels right, how it should be. I truly feel that I am exactly where I am meant to be, doing exactly what I was born to do, and I feel so beyond Blessed for that.
***Here’s hoping 2013 is just as good as 2012, because I can’t imagine it could get any better***
Happy New Year to you and yours!! Much love and happiness!!